我说的是实话，但我在撒谎：随笔（有声读物）

2020年奥迪决赛-短篇小说/系列
在《我说的是实话，但我在撒谎》一书中，Bassey Ikpi探索了她的生活——作为一名尼日利亚裔美国移民、一名黑人女性、一名大满贯诗人、一名母亲、一名女儿、一名艺术家——通过她的心理健康和对躁郁症II和焦虑症的诊断。她在散文中的杰出回忆录颠覆了我们对心灵和正常状态的先入之见，巴西以极端的诚实和残酷的亲密向我们展示了她自己的真理和谎言。
从在尼日利亚的童年到在俄克拉荷马州的青春期，Bassey Ikpi一直生活在情绪的混乱中，在极度兴奋和深度抑郁之间循环——有时在一天之内。在她20岁出头的时候，巴西已经是一名口头语言艺术家，并与HBO的Def诗歌专辑一起旅行，将她的生活引导到艺术中。但在这位自信的表演者的外表下，巴西的精神健康状况急剧下降，最终导致精神崩溃，住院治疗并被诊断为躁郁症II。
在《我说的是实话，但我在撒谎》中，Bassey Ikpi通过让我们亲密接触她自己的身体，打破了我们对心理健康的理解。在探索过程中的羞耻感、困惑、药物治疗和家庭时，Bassey着眼于心理健康如何影响我们生活的方方面面——我们在他人面前，更重要的是在自己面前的表现——并挑战我们对“正常”意味着什么的先入之见。从本质上讲，这是一个原始和诚实的过程，其结果是探索我们告诉自己的故事，以了解我们是谁——以及我们试图做到诚实的方式，这些故事中的每一个都可能是谎言。
I’m Telling the Truth, but I’m Lying: Essays (Audiobook)
A 2020 Audie finalist – short stories/collections
In I’m Telling the Truth, but I’m Lying, Bassey Ikpi explores her life – as a Nigerian-American immigrant, a black woman, a slam poet, a mother, a daughter, an artist – through the lens of her mental health and diagnosis of bipolar II and anxiety. Her remarkable memoir in essays implodes our preconceptions of the mind and normalcy as Bassey bares her own truths and lies for us all to behold with radical honesty and brutal intimacy.
From her early childhood in Nigeria through her adolescence in Oklahoma, Bassey Ikpi lived with a tumult of emotions, cycling between extreme euphoria and deep depression – sometimes within the course of a single day. By the time she was in her early ’20s, Bassey was a spoken word artist and traveling with HBO’s Def Poetry Jam, channeling her life into art. But beneath the façade of the confident performer, Bassey’s mental health was in a precipitous decline, culminating in a breakdown that resulted in hospitalization and a diagnosis of Bipolar II.
In I’m Telling the Truth, but I’m Lying, Bassey Ikpi breaks open our understanding of mental health by giving us intimate access to her own. Exploring shame, confusion, medication, and family in the process, Bassey looks at how mental health impacts every aspect of our lives – how we appear to others, and more importantly to ourselves – and challenges our preconception about what it means to be “normal”. Viscerally raw and honest, the result is an exploration of the stories we tell ourselves to make sense of who we are – and the ways, as honest as we try to be, each of these stories can also be a lie.

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